Sunday, 8 December 2013

Never-changing versus Ever-changing

Today, I started writing by typing  "quotes on change" in Google. Hello Paulo, long time no see. He is actually one of my favorite authors. Let's have a look at this quote:

"When we least expect it, life sets us a challenge to test our courage and willingness to change; at such a moment, there is no point in pretending that nothing has happened or in saying that we are not yet ready."
― Paulo CoelhoThe Devil and Miss Prym 



Flat Number 2
Last Day @ Flat Number One
Wow, that's a good one to start the the third blog post. Very personal at the same time. I have always been the biggest fan and the passionate enemy of change in my life. All at the same time to be exact. First of all, my start sign is cancer. I love to be surrounded with familiarity. The idea of change scares me. I usually shut my eyes and wait until winds of change heads south. Is it safe to come out now? Yet, look at me now. Last year this time, I was living in Ankara, my hometown, 30 minutes away from my family. It just took three phone calls for me to quit my job, leave my family and friends behind and come to live in Ireland.I am sharing a duplex with heating problems with my Nordic flatmates. I do seem to enjoy change.  
Like Paulo Coelho, I see change as a challenge. My instant reaction when facing a new situation is usually silence. Then comes the unpleasant part. I start whining. I find excuses, try to drag people to share my misery. This is generally a long way to fall and I know by know, duh I'm thirty, that I don't like the bottom of that road. There is no love. Still, there is another way. While I was going fast down the spiral, I hear a song, see a movie, talk to someone who is not afraid to be open. Then I stop. I think. Everything is silent around me. Then I hear a drum roll and start to see the spotlight. 



Yesterday I felt the same. I took a leap of faith. I came to Dublin. The reason was simple. I was on my way to re-invent myself. I am doing good. But from time to time I need to remind myself. It can be slower sometimes. But I am committed to this cause. This blog will be the place that I share milestones of this transformation. 

This brings me to my final point for this week. I can use another quote on change here. 

“Things change. And friends leave. Life doesn't stop for anybody.” 

 Stephen Chbosky, The Perks of Being a Wallflower 

I met my best friend Naz when I was 11. Ever since, our friendship managed to pass from numerous tests. Even Scream 3. She knows what I mean. She changed, I changed, things around us changed. She left as Stephen Chbosky said. Then she forced me to follow her. Here we are today. Both 30 years old. As a tribute to a never-changing friendship against ever-changing situations, we now have matching tattoos. Thank you for being there each time I fail. Thank you for being there each time I succeed. 


Love is... shaving your best friends leg :)

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